Monday

I went with my flatmates to the Principal's welcome. It was SO early so I was yawning throughout the entire thing. I went to a Psychology introduction where I met some nice people. When I first got here, I regressed. I used to be shy but I gradually became more confidant and independant but for some reason, when I arrived in Dundee I suddenly became my old self. Now, because I met my flatmates when I was in that state, I act like that around them. Luckily, I become my normal self around everyone else.

Later

I went to see my adviser and started my matriculation. I chose to do Molecular Science and Evolution and Biodiversity in semester one and the same except for evo plus Genes, Hereditry and Development for semester 2. A really hot guy was selling insurance so I bought it (and not just because he was hot! :P). My flatmates went out that night without me. I guess they see me as a burden or something. I don't know. I still feel really lonely here.

Tuesday

I matriculated today but only afterwards did I realise my student finance forms hadn't been sorted out so after I registered for a GP, and tall rice visited me, I went into town and tried to find the post office. I got pretty lost but then I walked around and it was right in front of me which was pretty lucky. There are SO many shops in Dundee, it's awesome. The only bad thing is that they're all outside so it would suck if it rained. Luckily Dundee is really sunny.

Later

I went to a buddy group and met some more people. No one I could become really close to though. Everyone seems to be older than me.

Wednesday

I went to the clinic to complete my registration. When I was there, some asians came in to register. I really wanted to talk to them but then it would have been a bit creepy. I managed to work out that three of them were Taiwanese. I'm not sure if I'm right or not but that's my guess. I went to collect my discount card after that and ran into my flatmates. We went for lunch and it felt kind of awkward with them.

Later

I went to the ceildh. I only went because I thought the buddy group were meeting there but they weren't so I talked to a women I saw at the clinic and therefore made friends with her and her asian friend who is from India. I also met an amazing girl from Mexico who's soooo nice and friendly as well as two Swiss guys. One of them was really good looking ;) and I got to dance with him. It was quite fun I guess.

Thursday

I went to a Psychology welcome meeting and met my mentor. That's how I met a girl and a really nice guy. We went to register for our life sciences together. My flatmates invited me to go to the flat upstairs where they're having a party. I felt kind of annoyed that one of them said that they actually got me out one night. I would have gone out other nights except that they never ask and I feel like the odd one out. They always talk about stuff they've seen and done which I haven't so I can't join in the conversation and therefore they don't talk to me. 

Later

At the party, all my flatmates had kind of moved away from me and were talking together and a drunk guy sat next to me and talked to me. He was pretty nice, for a drunk guy and he made me a drink. I think my flatmates were talking about me because they were saying things then looking at me. They then left without saying anything until they saw me staring at them and they told me they were going to the union and they thought I wanted to stay here (not true) but I felt so left out I didn't bother going with them. Instead, I went to tall rice's flat. It was much more fun. We talked for hours and it was great. I never realised we were so close before but I guess we're both recluses here. Not enough weird people.

Friday

 I asked about learning Mandarin and I got a form then I went to the sports fayre and signed up for fencing and archery. I'll go and try both of them first before I join one of them.

Later

I went grocery shopping and it was really really heavy. When walking back, I thought I was going to die!!! Not joking. Dundee is pretty much built on a massive hill!! Was horrible.

Even later

Bazooka Boy was being really difficult and wanted me to ask my parents if it's ok him staying over. Obviously I wouldn't. Not worth it. He kept on trying to make me and didn't try to understand. I got a bit pissed off at him but didn't show it.

Yesterday

I bought a lab coat! So weird. I can't believe I'm actually in uni. I tell everyone it's really really fun because it's SUPPOSED to be but I don't really think it is. It's stressful and confusing. Maybe it would be better if I had close friends on my course or something.

Later

I dragged tall rice to the freshers/society fayre with me. It was really hot and crowded. I love Dundee because it's hot and sunny and I'm living in a flat which is close to everything so it's kind of like Hong Kong. I picked up a lot of leaflets and signed up for the Malaysian society. I just saw Malaysian and I thought of Chiyo ao automatically went over to the stall. They said that lots of different kind of people join like Scottish and people from HONG KONG!!! I heard that and knew I wanted to join but then she went on and said the first meeting/event was MID AUTUMN FESTIVAL!!!!! I heard that and knew for sure that I was going to join. I didn't care that I'm already planning to learn a language which lets you join the foreign films club for free or that I wanted to join a sports club. At that moment, all I could think of was the awesomeness of the Malaysian society!

Even later

I went with tall rice to a pancake place and it was really good evem though I felt kind of sick afterwards. I then met Bazooka Boy at the train station. I didn't really want to. I know it sounds bad but I couldn't really be bothered spending time with him. I feel so so bad and guilty because he loves me so much but I just don't feel the same way about him. It's so confusing. We went back to my flat and there was an awkward moment when my flatmates saw him. He went home later.

I still feel really lonely here. I don't really miss home or the people there yet. Maybe I will after I've been here for longer, I don't know. Maybe I'm just an emotionless, unfeeling b*tch.

Today

Didn't really do much. Back hurts from sleeping too much though. I feel as though my flatmates are ignoring me. I'm not really sure. I had to say hello first. I'm feeling extrememly paranoid. I just want to get along well with my flatmates. I don't mind if we're close or not. I would like to have close friends here though. Just to be able to ask them if they wanted to go out and do something. Obviously, I could never be as close with anyone else as I am with Chiyo. I've been missing her everyday for over a year now. Everyday, the empty space where she should be just grows larger and larger. Everyday I think of her. I guess I need you the most right now. You understand how I'm feeling right? But you understand me anyway so it doesn't matter whether or not you've been in the same situation. You're my sun, my air, my water. I couldn't live without you. I just love you so much!

See you soon~